Lets have an adventure

ever feel like the decisions you've made in life have you tied up and trapped?

If your answer is yes read further.

I'm not going to provide reasons and ways to change...but maybe if you read between the lines you'll figure it out, just like I have to.
Affairs of fun...I'm well versed. I don't take life too seriously, and perhaps to my detriment. I try to let things happen and rarely have much concern for affect. Life's too short to worry so much about what people think. Ha. Cliche after cliche, right? I'm beginning to learn that the cliches in life are the lessons...we just think they're *duh* until we actually learn it. Then, and so it goes, we utter the cliche.

(*side idea: perhaps I should make these lessons into art and sell them in my little re-purpose shop in a tourist town...with a small soup cafe. Dreams.)

So it goes, life, on down the days...til one day when life stops. We never know when it'll happen...and what will happen after we're gone. This blog is tending more darkly than I anticipated... must change the station.

Your life is not changed by the man that's elected.
If you're loved then you're never rejected.

Scandalous activity temps me all the time...and I bring on every situation. In fact I think I seek it out. I'm judging myself, because I wasn't raised to be the person I'm tempted to become.
Its funny because if things work out like I've rationalized in my mind..then they're not so scandalous, it's just playing out like I always knew it would. Now, the debatable statement is that I've created my own destiny. Are some things predetermined and we just all take different paths to get there? Kind of like the life lessons, everyone has a set of experiences to live and how they get there is a result of birthplace and situation. These are the maybes in life that I wonder about and no one can answer to the actuality, only their own theory. 

Does it ever come to a point that its inevitable? I'm sure for some, but for me? Well. We shall see...as they say.

Dive In, Water's Divine.

Dreams

1. Come home and have positive, stimulating, affectionate conversation.

2. Sell house for a profit over and over again until in the end no mortgage.

3. Live and work abroad...one income feeds a family in many places.

They always say, "live your dreams"

Its not possible without pain, change is painful.

Change is fun though, right?

What is it about these thoughts that's so scary to share? Goes back to perception is reality. Are we our thoughts or are we our actions....or some twisted combination?

Questions

I seem to have a lot of them lately. At certain points in my life I've felt I had it all figured out. I've been on top of my fishbowl. I want to jump out like those couple plecostomus' I found dried up behind the tank stand in college. Today I threw the most childish tantrum. Tonight I was not thirty five, I was fifteen...totally dissatisfied with my life. 

Why do we always talk about nothing? I long to have meaningful thought provoking conversation...but I don't.