I want to date you.

In a big city, where we're relatively unknown..
far past the watchful eye of hometown.

Lets have an adventure

ever feel like the decisions you've made in life have you tied up and trapped?

If your answer is yes read further.

I'm not going to provide reasons and ways to change...but maybe if you read between the lines you'll figure it out, just like I have to.
Affairs of fun...I'm well versed. I don't take life too seriously, and perhaps to my detriment. I try to let things happen and rarely have much concern for affect. Life's too short to worry so much about what people think. Ha. Cliche after cliche, right? I'm beginning to learn that the cliches in life are the lessons...we just think they're *duh* until we actually learn it. Then, and so it goes, we utter the cliche.

(*side idea: perhaps I should make these lessons into art and sell them in my little re-purpose shop in a tourist town...with a small soup cafe. Dreams.)

So it goes, life, on down the days...til one day when life stops. We never know when it'll happen...and what will happen after we're gone. This blog is tending more darkly than I anticipated... must change the station.

Your life is not changed by the man that's elected.
If you're loved then you're never rejected.

Scandalous activity temps me all the time...and I bring on every situation. In fact I think I seek it out. I'm judging myself, because I wasn't raised to be the person I'm tempted to become.
Its funny because if things work out like I've rationalized in my mind..then they're not so scandalous, it's just playing out like I always knew it would. Now, the debatable statement is that I've created my own destiny. Are some things predetermined and we just all take different paths to get there? Kind of like the life lessons, everyone has a set of experiences to live and how they get there is a result of birthplace and situation. These are the maybes in life that I wonder about and no one can answer to the actuality, only their own theory. 

Does it ever come to a point that its inevitable? I'm sure for some, but for me? Well. We shall see...as they say.

Dive In, Water's Divine.

Dreams

1. Come home and have positive, stimulating, affectionate conversation.

2. Sell house for a profit over and over again until in the end no mortgage.

3. Live and work abroad...one income feeds a family in many places.

They always say, "live your dreams"

Its not possible without pain, change is painful.

Change is fun though, right?

What is it about these thoughts that's so scary to share? Goes back to perception is reality. Are we our thoughts or are we our actions....or some twisted combination?

Questions

I seem to have a lot of them lately. At certain points in my life I've felt I had it all figured out. I've been on top of my fishbowl. I want to jump out like those couple plecostomus' I found dried up behind the tank stand in college. Today I threw the most childish tantrum. Tonight I was not thirty five, I was fifteen...totally dissatisfied with my life. 

Why do we always talk about nothing? I long to have meaningful thought provoking conversation...but I don't.

Goal: Total world domination *see Cliche

Thirty-five is not old. Its not. When I was twenty three, thirty-five was ancient in my mind which I'll chalk up as proof that time, as all else, is relative. Or something like that. Perception is key.

We all know who we are, deep down, but unless others perceive our true selves, then are we really who we think we are? Then again, we die alone so does it really matter what others think of us?

Random thoughts to ponder.

What happens when kids are bullied?
Why is my nephew so angry; why is my son so stubborn? 
Do our personalities rub off on our children?

What is up with all the violence in this world? We're under global terrorism warning this month, pitting religion, and military against humankind. When are we going to stop this hatred, people?

Our mother Earth is dying and who'll be around for the funeral? Last night a fellow human told me global warming was a fallacy. Seriously? Call it whatever you like, there's no denying the polar ice caps are melting. Yes, its true, Geology has proven the Earth goes though cycles. I prefer to believe that our planet is in a constant state of evolution, as is humankind.

Can Big Data catalog the worlds population? Seems to me a simple responsibility of technology as the future to do so in order to take and manage inventory.

Some people, well most people, are afraid of losing human rights. Realize that human rights are made up...lets make some rules so we can all get along. We often violate real human rights in everyday life and law. Just saying.

Ah well, that's enough for tonight. Be peaceful to one another, humans.

And we'll never be Royals...

My current infatuation, Lorde - Royals

This song is amazing and her voice is so pretty! Happy Friday, enjoy mellow beats this lovely day. We all dream of being the Ruler...

Weed and Water, and bit of The Sun

Its cathartic really to spend two hours weeding a garden. Forced to slow down my thought process, (as these things take time) I learn a lot from my thoughts...I'd probably learn more if I discussed with someone else.

And speaking of social, as these thought processes typically lead back to business..how much revenue is actually generated by links from social media? How much revenue is driven by online chat on customer portals?

I personally haven't generated ANY. Ha...well at this point this blog isn't about making money, its about figuring out life..the age old meaning to jump into a cliche. We all know deep inside if we pay attention to our humanness. At least I believe we do...but I haven't gotten to that aha moment, the eureka of life. Like weeding the garden, these things take time.

As I weeded my gardens tonight, a few neighbors said hello from the road :) I like a neighborhood where people are friendly. Mine's that kind of hood. One man commented we are always at the extremes here in Minnesota...when it was rainy, it was too rainy. Now that it's hot, its too hot and we'd really love all that water.

To which I replied, obviously, "We wouldn't have any complaints if we'd saved the water though, right?" This statement applies to all the elements. We have enough, its just the resources aren't allocated properly. The sun provides exponentially more energy than we use, harnessing that energy for the greater good is possible, but its far cheaper to burn fossil fuels. Ugh, humans. God is not money.

Are we our thoughts or our actions? Or are we our words, what makes us human? Chemistry, matter, and a bit of magic...Seeds of life in a garden called Earth. Time to cook up the harvest for one.

The joys of camping with kids

The great outdoors, gotta love getting out into nature for a little rest and relaxation, peace and quiet.  Ha, impossible with two kids.  Ben and I had good intentions of taking them for a hike to wear them out and ensure we had an early bedtime. Truly a laughable attempt. The first 4 minutes were great...they were asking questions about nature, trying to identify poison ivy, picking up walking sticks... but then it was a fight about who was going to be the leader, and someone's legs are tired, and then came the tears.

Does it get better? Silence is a state I hardly ever experience anymore. I miss my good buddy silence.

Dear Elizabeth

We're independent, humans. No, interdependent is more accurate.

This time of year, I celebrate your life...along with many others who knew you. Ben and I were talking about you tonight Beth! I'm sure you already know on some plane.

I'll never forget that time you and I went on a stealth tulip heist at Iowa State, or the Rob Zombie concert~ super fun times!!! Hanging around your apartment or getting ready to go out; dancing around and listening to Teenage FBI on repeat like 6 times. hahahaha ahhh, sigh.


You know, it doesn't really pay to be angry. I miss you everyday and think of you more. You inspire me to take life less seriously, and also to live it to the fullest. I thank God our paths crossed in life and hope I see you in heaven.

Life altering Habits

I have been telling my self for a while I should start running again... I mean a long while. Made a fleeting attempt around Memorial Day to tie into the new kicks. Twenty minutes and out. A start, but it fizzled by the time I got back to Minnesota.

Tonight is another beginning. If I had to estimate, I ran for a solid 1.5 miles... 2 tops. Again, a start. The challenge, clearly, is to form a habit. Exercise is painful, in the beginning...and it always is, no matter who you are. When you start to change, whether it be a lifestyle, a behavior, your body... there's pain involved.

If you have the right mental attitude, you can convince yourself that the pain is temporary and you'll get through it. When your legs start to feel weak, start using your core and arm muscles more and your body will carry on.

I have learned that my experiences are likely not at all unique. Even less unique are the lessons learned from my experience. As humans, we learn the same life lessons...and no one can teach us but ourselves. The key is, however, you need to go out and experience life in order to learn from it so what the heck are you waiting for?

Life is social, social is everywhere. Its the latest buzzword, and if you're not getting on the social bandwagon, you're likely to be left in the proverbial dust. But the heart of social lies in our human nature, our need to connect with others. Our longing for a sense of community, and contentment when we find ourselves a part of something greater is common to all humankind...at least I imagine it is.

Each of us is unique, individually, but we share a collective humanity.

I decided tonight I'm going to form a new habit, well two new habits. I will start running in the evenings and blogging about my perception of life. Even though the human experience teaches the same lessons, each of our paths is truly unique. This is mine...read it if you're interested. Duh.